I hated school because I never wanted to take work home.

Writing about my anxiety helps me make light of daily stresses and feel more grateful. I was a little hesitant to publish this one, but here goes nothing:

Picture it: Huntington 2011 (i love golden girls ๐Ÿ˜‚).

One of my first thoughts when i decided to hustle up some summer classes and finish my BS in chemistry a semester early was “I can’t wait until a life without homework”.

I hated college and vowed to never go back to school. Because it never ended – classes ran into other classes ran into study groups ran into labs. It was so much pressure, so many hours of dedication… ONE mistake could ruin everything back then. I was over it and I wanted time to live my life.

When I first started my first job as a chemist I was amazed at how nice it was to leave work – even if it was a long day … and be DONE until the next day. Or be DONE all weekend.

It was absolutely amazing to not have work following me around like a shadow. My anxiety was way down. Life was simpler.

Then i became a mom, which is like getting a PhD in overworking. It’s honestly like college on crack cocaine. Continue reading “I hated school because I never wanted to take work home.”

The trauma of being a black mother

Can I tell you guys something real?

I am a mom who has a lot of anxious thoughts postpartum, and being a woman of color adds to my stress. Being a black woman, specifically.

I won’t go into depth because other black women understand and I am not trying to convince anyone else. Continue reading “The trauma of being a black mother”

Nesting with Tarra ? – 5 months postpartum ๐Ÿ˜†

LB has been at my mom and dads since Friday and I have been going crazy with organizing and cleaning random stuff while Viv naps. Idk if it’s the dopamine from finally being able to accomplish ANYTHING in peace or some kind of hormonal response but i love it ๐Ÿ˜‚

So far:

– cleaned out and organized kitchen cabinets

– cleaned out fridge

– helped install our home security system (by help I mean hubby did it then I made him relocate the keypad ๐Ÿ˜‚)

– sorted through a bunch of paperwork

– painted around thermostats and home security keypad

Pics for proof ๐Ÿ˜‚

Continue reading “Nesting with Tarra ? – 5 months postpartum ๐Ÿ˜†”

Cloth diapers made easy – night time cloth diapering

Cloth diapering during the day is much different than at night once your baby starts sleeping longer stretches. During the day most cloth mommas change every 2 hours (or whenever the diaper is soiled) so diapers only have to hold that much pee. But no one is waking a baby every 2-3 hours for a diaper change so night time cloth diapers need to be comfortable and absorb a lot.

Vivian is a heavy wetter (she obviously takes in A LOT of milk – just look at her ๐Ÿ˜‚). She has been sleeping 8-10 hours at night since about 8 weeks old. Continue reading “Cloth diapers made easy – night time cloth diapering”

KGOAL? Whatโ€™s that?

This is not what it looks like.

But it does go where you think it goes ๐Ÿ˜‚

This is the KGOAL – and it’s designed to help you kegal properly haha (and to make it fun!). All of us mommas, especially those of us who run, know how important pelvic floor strength is.

How’s it work? Well, it’s a device and free app that makes pelvic floor exercise fun and interactive. It gives you visual and tactile feedback and even has a diagram to show you how to properly engage your pelvic floor.

And it’s totally comfortable. It’s designed like a balloon or pillow – you can “deflate” it to insert and “inflate” to get the perfect fit for your body!

It’s a cool little device and I definitely suggest you try it. I cant wait to get back to using it after I’m all healed from Vivs birth.

Wanna try KGOAL? Get yours here!

My Must Have Baby Items :)

Alright guys, I’ve gotten a lot of questions about my favorite baby gear so I figured I should just share here. Of course there are a lot of baby items out there –  these are just the ones I use the most and am most excited to have.

  1. Of course I love my cloth diaper stash, but for times when I need a disposable diaper OR wipes/rash cream I head to a new site I discovered – Brandless! They sell certified organic, hypoallergenic, fragrance free baby items. So important for those of us with little ones that have sensitive skin. And their prices are AMAZING. Not just on their baby stuff – on everything. Check them out! Continue reading “My Must Have Baby Items :)”