I hated school because I never wanted to take work home.

Writing about my anxiety helps me make light of daily stresses and feel more grateful. I was a little hesitant to publish this one, but here goes nothing:

Picture it: Huntington 2011 (i love golden girls πŸ˜‚).

One of my first thoughts when i decided to hustle up some summer classes and finish my BS in chemistry a semester early was “I can’t wait until a life without homework”.

I hated college and vowed to never go back to school. Because it never ended – classes ran into other classes ran into study groups ran into labs. It was so much pressure, so many hours of dedication… ONE mistake could ruin everything back then. I was over it and I wanted time to live my life.

When I first started my first job as a chemist I was amazed at how nice it was to leave work – even if it was a long day … and be DONE until the next day. Or be DONE all weekend.

It was absolutely amazing to not have work following me around like a shadow. My anxiety was way down. Life was simpler.

Then i became a mom, which is like getting a PhD in overworking. It’s honestly like college on crack cocaine. Continue reading “I hated school because I never wanted to take work home.”

The trauma of being a black mother

Can I tell you guys something real?

I am a mom who has a lot of anxious thoughts postpartum, and being a woman of color adds to my stress. Being a black woman, specifically.

I won’t go into depth because other black women understand and I am not trying to convince anyone else. Continue reading “The trauma of being a black mother”

Nesting with Tarra ? – 5 months postpartum πŸ˜†

LB has been at my mom and dads since Friday and I have been going crazy with organizing and cleaning random stuff while Viv naps. Idk if it’s the dopamine from finally being able to accomplish ANYTHING in peace or some kind of hormonal response but i love it πŸ˜‚

So far:

– cleaned out and organized kitchen cabinets

– cleaned out fridge

– helped install our home security system (by help I mean hubby did it then I made him relocate the keypad πŸ˜‚)

– sorted through a bunch of paperwork

– painted around thermostats and home security keypad

Pics for proof πŸ˜‚

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Cloth diapers made easy – night time cloth diapering

Cloth diapering during the day is much different than at night once your baby starts sleeping longer stretches. During the day most cloth mommas change every 2 hours (or whenever the diaper is soiled) so diapers only have to hold that much pee. But no one is waking a baby every 2-3 hours for a diaper change so night time cloth diapers need to be comfortable and absorb a lot.

Vivian is a heavy wetter (she obviously takes in A LOT of milk – just look at her πŸ˜‚). She has been sleeping 8-10 hours at night since about 8 weeks old. Continue reading “Cloth diapers made easy – night time cloth diapering”

Cloth diapers made easy – hard water and stripping diapers

Now we are getting into some advanced cloth diapering stuff, haha. If you’re new to reading here or just looking for the beginning stuff, please check out the basic cloth diaper washing post. And the other cloth diapering made easy posts 😊.

One common problem with cloth diapers is stink. If you’re following a good wash routine, things should be fine. However, one of the main causes of stink is mineral buildup.

Continue reading “Cloth diapers made easy – hard water and stripping diapers”

Cloth diapering made easy – cloth wipes

When I first started cloth diapering I knew I would use disposable wipes. Why not? They aren’t that expensive and I didn’t want to be washing the wipes.

That changed quickly. I noticed that the natural thing to do when I change a diaper is to fold the wipe into the diaper and drop in the bin. I had been gifted some wipes from Thirsties so I gave them a try. I was in love.

Even the stinkiest “would have blown out a disposable” poo only took 1 cloth wipe.

Continue reading “Cloth diapering made easy – cloth wipes”